I'M BACKKKK!!!!!!

So I haven't blogged in a whole month!! I was hoping and praying I wasn't about to kick my blog to the curb but I
have sooo much to talk about!

First....I am a new mommy and am loving every single second of it!!! I gave birth to Cayden Xavier on

February 6, 2012 @ 6:12pm and he

was 8lbs 13oz!! So to all those who swore up and down I would have a teeny baby...POW! Fooled ya :-) He is amazing and anything he does we think is sooo cute! Burps and farts included!! My pregnancy was amazing and labor and delivery was even better! Contractions are definitely the work of the devil but I handled them well *pats self really hard on the back* lol I had a great support system my entire pregnancy and that was and is a blessing in itself! Cayden is truly blessed!

I won't get too deep into everything being as though I'm a private person and I can talk for hours about my new love...I included a few pictures just to show everyone what I've been doing for the past month!!!!

Snapped Back...

Funny how things work themselves out...

I was just having a moment laying here frustrated (for no reason at all smh) and I logged on Twitter and Terry McMillan tweeted, when we wake up and before we got to sleep name 3 things we are grateful for. She said see how we feel different afterwards. I did that and I did feel different and realized I was just trippin. Us women have emotional, moments, days, weeks, etc. But we have to keep focused on all the good going on.

This post has nothing to do with anything in particular besides showing how a shift in thoughts can be a easy shift to a different mood.

Good Nite! Remember...what are YOU grateful for???

Jay really giving up the word BXTCH??

I was browsing the net and saw that on top of the song Glory, Jay Z has also written a special letter to his princess saying he is giving up the word BXTCH! That is a big deal for the rapper who pretty much went toe to toe with Oprah about why the word wasn't as bad as people perceived it to be. Little Blue is changing Jay all around the board, can't wait to hear the new music that I'm sure will be soon to follow. Kids can bring the worst or best out of people and it seems she's doing the latter!

This is definitely a shocker after his line in 'Say Hello'..."when Jena 6 don't exist, tell em that's when i'll stop saying bxtch...bxxxxtchhh"

Below is the letter to Blue from Jay:

Before I got in the game, made a change, and got rich,

I didn’t think hard about using the word B—-.

I rapped, I flipped it, I sold it, I lived it

now with my daughter in this world

I curse those that give it.

I never realized while on the fast track

that I’d give riddance to the word bitch, to leave her innocence in tact.

No man will degrade her, or call her out her name

the women won’t despise her and call her the same.

I know it’s gonna miss me

cuz we been together like Nike Airs and crisp tees

when we all used to hang out front

singing 99 problems but a lady ain’t one.

Excuse me miss, can I be your mister

cuz I can tell the difference from a little girl and a sister,

She never grew up, her father left her alone

I promise not to talk like we used to

until Kingdom Come.

I’m so focused on your future,

The degradation has passed

I wish you wealth, health, and insight

forever young you may pass.

Blue Ivy Carter, my angel.

Blue's first appearance!

ok, so i didn't post a CONGRATS to Bey n Jay (my all time fave couple) because i know ppl were tired of hearing about Blue Ivy but I am sooo excited! Don't ask me why but I just am Lol

BUT i had to post the new track, Glory, Jay made feat. his princess Blue Ivy Carter (she's going to be paid already)!! it's so cuuute and he is such a proud papa already and i love seeing MEN being men and doing what they are supposed to for their kids and actually ENJOYING it :-))



I have a feeling Jay's style of music will be changing from this day forward, for even better! So Congrats to the Carters!!

"you don't yet know what swag is but you was made in Paris"

Cake...Cake...Cake...Cake.....

I LOVE this song...well it's not even a full song but it gets me going!



"it's not even my birthday...but he wanna lick the icing awff"

Separated is STILL Married....

Hey Everybodyyyy!!!

I know this post is way left field but fxck it! lol With the divorce rate at an all time high...i just want to clarify that if a man or woman says they are separated they are STILL MARRIED!! I've always told myself that I could never sleep with let alone "date" a married man. For one, that is disobedient to God and I wouldn't want that Karma coming back around on me. Also, a man will never leave his wife for his mistress. I'm way to selfish to take a married guy serious anyway! Can't call after a certain time, can't give me what I want WHEN I WANT IT and just the thought of him tending to someone else's needs would tear my nerves to pieces.

But what about those who are "separated"??? I've always wondered the same thing, if they separated legally or not does that give one the pass to pursue a relationship or fxckship? I've always thought the answer was NO but wasn't sure but now I realize the answer is NO...DONT DO IT...RECONSIDER! A separation is a time for the couple to try to iron out issues before pursuing a legal divorce and if a 3rd party comes into play it makes the chances of the couple getting back together even harder. When couple get divorced it's not about just them two, it can seriously affect the children involved and also break up that family bond that molds strong and confident kids. A lot of times we don't look at the bigger effects of our actions but a marriage and separation should be left for the couple to deal with. Even if one person says they aren't living together or they know it's over...wait for the divorce to be complete. There is always a chance they get back together then you are stuck on stupid and all they are going to say is..."Well You Knew the Situation up Front" which is True!

Just put yourself in other people's shoes...most of the time we get one side of the story and of course that side will be the side that tries to make you comfortable with playing around with a married individual. But I'm sure if you heard the other side it will be something totally different. That other person may be at home crying, hoping and praying every night that things will work out...while you're out living it up with THEIR husband/wife.

Every decision reaps a consequence...

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Morning thinking...wondering why people lie, front and compete??! Then wonder why things arent working in their favor, its ok to just do you and keep your mouth shut! People speak to soon instead of letting their actions speak for themselves.

I'll stop there.

Have a great one!

- Checking in from my iPhone...I love everyone's feedback!

FEED...MEEEE!

This picture represents exactly how i feel right now!!! OMG...I'm starving! Recently, I've developed gestational diabetes due to the me and my Bam Bam's hormones not working well together. And this is my first day on my new "diet" that the gestational diabetes counselor gave us and I feel like I haven't eaten in days! I've been trying to stick to the script and i think i've done well compared to how I usually eat, which isn't too bad, but definitely more than what I can eat now!

You never realize the luxuries you have until they are gone! Everything has to be measured out, to almost nothing but you get more meals a day. And I have to test my blood after breakfast, lunch and dinner as well as when I first wake up. I did great on the morning tests buuuuut after lunch WOWZERS! I'm sure that came from the chocolate and almond granola bars I picked up. I don't even eat granola bars but I had to find ANYthing to snack on. Hell, they are high in fiber which is good but I don't think I'll be able to continue eating them. As I type, my stomach is eating through my back right now and I have a terrible headache and I just ate my afternoon "snack" grapes, milk and 5 pretzels! yes, 17 grapes, 5 pretzels and 1 cup of milk!

I'm going to try my hardest to do better, I didn't do terrible but I can do better especially since I have to write down all my numbers as well as what I eat all day for each meal. I would hate for Jenny (counselor) to make the diet even more strict. COME ON FEBRUARY!! Now I have more sympathy for those who have diabetes to deal with on a day to day basis...this thing is HARD!

Pray for a sista! *scrolls back up to drool over the burger in the pic*

WishList: ZUMBA!

Just thought I'd share that I want this game for Christmas!! I always hear good things about Zumba and I love a good fun work out so I want to give this one a try.

Don't everybody jump at once :-)