Changing My Life One Day at A Time....

So it's Day 8 of me getting on the treadmill in the mornings before work!!  I think this is honestly the longest stretch of me sticking to exercising besides when I was younger and was in sporting activities.  I am so proud of myself and I actually look forward to getting on the treadmill each day.  I was going to try to do every other day but knowing me that one day off would throw me all the way off and have me making excuses.  So I just started off with an attainable goal which is do at least 10 minutes a day and do arm workouts twice a week in the evenings.  Starting with 10 minutes, now I have worked myself up to 16 minutes and yes I run the entire time on an incline!!  Now that I have gotten to 16 minutes, 10 minutes is a breeze for me.  I have a purpose for doing this which is why I have stuck with it.  My purpose is definitely not to lose weight lol but to get my metabolism going, get my brain moving and my private time to meditate and talk to God.  When I say I can see a drastic improvement in my productivity at work and even in the evenings when I get home I'm not ready to pass out as soon as I walk in the door.  I just feel better overall and I start my day off on a good note and that is usually how the day ends up.

I definitely have to talk to myself during those last few minutes on the treadmill because the back of my thighs get to burning lol  And I just tell myself, "you are jogging to your new life" "jogging to accomplish new goals" "jogging to those doors that God is waiting to open" "jogging to show God you are disciplined and ready for his blessing" and those statements help me push through.  I also keep the time covered up and occasionally I peek at it but I focus more on my thoughts than the actual act of exercising itself.  I have been involved in a lot more projects and been given more opportunities at work and I enjoy coming in.  I mentioned before that I had been looking for new jobs for foreverrrrr and nothing has came about and now our company seems to be reorganizing and I'm really liking what they are doing!  I know I don't want to work a 9-5 for the rest of my life but for now clearly this is where God wants me and I am going to take advantage of all opportunities and do my best and with a good attitude and we'll see where things go....

I'm really excited and I am going to continue what I'm doing, I've eliminated a lot of unnecessary situations out of my life and I feel so free!  Everything is a learning experience and I've definitely learned a lot of lessons so now it's time to take action and DO ME!

The Little Things...

I love this pic!  It's actually a screen shot of a video of my guys racing each other...already! lol  It's the little things that kids remember and that create an everlasting bond between them and their parents.  Of course, they like the "things" we buy but really can you remember EVERY thing your parent bought you??  There are those couple items that we just had to have and probably remember but what we remember the most from our childhood are the memories made together.  Los and I always are creating memories together and with our guy and he is theeee best father hands down!!  No, I don't post pics of him all over my social media sites every time we do something together or every time he does something nice.  Everything is not for everybody and some people really don't care they just want to have something to talk about, I also feel certain parts of our lives should remain intimate and I am a very private person when it comes to my family.  Like Fab said "Ya'll could say whatever, just don't bring the family up"....
Some need to validate themselves and get comments from people everyday but when it's real and you are secure you don't need anyone's approval but each others.  I am really grateful to have these two awesome guys in my life...Boogy too lol and I wouldn't trade them in for anything even though they work my nerves from time to time but we all need some excitement here and there! :-)  Spend time with your kids because time waits for no one and you definitely don't want to look up and your kids are 16 and you are wondering why the relationship is non existent...relationships don't just "happen" when they are teens those relationships are building through their childhood and children may forget the things you buy but they will never forget the way you made/make them feel....

Great Interview!!

With Jay Z of course!!  I left his name out of my post title for those who are tired of my Jay Z obsession lol  But really....this is a great interview!!  Elliott Wilson is a great interviewer!!  They talk about almost everything instead of the basic questions that most people ask.  You can tell he has studied Jay and knows a lot about different topics to keep the convo going.  They touch on Obama, Trayvon Martin in which Jay called Zimmerman a "fxckn mall cop" LOL his anxieties about being a Dad, RocNation Sports etc.  They say study the greats and Jay Z is definitely one of the greats all around.  I admire is business mind so much!

I hope you enjoy!!  #FACTSONLY

I'm Making Progress....

.....now if I will just discipline myself to keep moving forward!  These tweets were right on time.  If you have been reading my blogs for the THREE years that I've been blogging, you can see that I've been trying to make changes for the better and getting out of my comfort zone.  In the process I have done that but then I run back to my comfort zone if I get anxious.  It is definitely a cycle that I have been in for so long which has led me nowhere so I have been sloooooooooooowly breaking the cycle.

Last week I joined the employee committee at my job and I am also a head of the Events subcommittee.  I also joined with a group who are majority new hires and a few old employees but not many.  So I am forced to be involved and alone without anyone I'm too familiar with.  We have started a book club and a philanthropy group.  Everyone is really cool and I'm looking forward to stepping out there.  I also joined a kickball league which takes place on the National Mall *bites nails*....I don't know ANYONE besides one co worker who just started at my job so this will be ummmm different. lol  But the games are only one day a week, no practice just pure fun and we hang out for a little while after the games if we want to. 

I am on my way to become the best me and I can't stay stuck in my same routines.  I know there will be a day where I look back and laugh at how fear held me hostage for so long.  I know for a fact this won't be forever.

Seven Sevyn....Magna Carta Holy Grail

My birthday is almost hereeeeee!  July 7th and Jay Z has decided to gift me a great gift for my 30th!!!  His new album!!  During the Spurs game...by the way my Spurs are take it all tonight...Jay had a 3 minute commercial showing him in the studio working on the new album!  He has some of the greatest collaborating with him so I know it's going to be dope!  He's actually releasing it to Samsung note users on July 4th and the first 1 million people get a free download then he release it to the public 72 hours later...which is MY BIRTHDAY!!!  Jay Z is definitely changing the game with this one....Samsung has already bought 1 million copies which is why they are giving away those for free and they say that totals up to $5 million off the break for Jay Z.  This is why I admire Jay, he is always coming up with new ways to stay relevant and get that CASHHH (in my Juicy J voice).....

Q.U.E.E.N

"even if makes others uncomfortableeeee....i will love who i am"



Janelle Monae and Erykah Badu DID DAT! lol  I was definitely partying at my desk and this is going to be on repeat!  They picked the perfect two for this song because they do them and do it well!  Janelle Monae's flow at the end was crazy even though it probably went over a lot of people's head.... 

...no no the booty don't lie....oh nooo the booty don't lieeee

Hump Day Motivation!

I wanted to share a few tweets from Freshalina's twitter from last night that were exactly what I needed at that exact moment!  I think I have finally figured out the service that God wants me to give and I was researching schools to improve my skills and get certified.  Of course, my mind got to running and coming up with all of the obstacles of why I could not do it then I "mind checked" lol myself and came up with the positives.  The tweet about not being able to get a job was sooo on point!  I have been applying to jobs for almost 6 years and I have not got a new one or even a damn interview!!  I'm like I know I have what it takes so what's the problem!  Not that I am complaining about my current job because I am definitely blessed but once you feel there is nothing more to learn or even contribute it's time to make a change.  Getting turned down for job after job definitely gets your creative juices flowing and I lost my creative mindset once I got settled into my normal routines and being comfortable for a while.

So I prayed and prayed, revamped resume after resume, applied to jobs in different fields made creative cover letters...the whole 9!  I heard God say create your OWN and get out and give.  I also think about Jay Z who I loveee so much for his business sense and everything else he stands for lol  How no one would sign him so he went out and did his own thing and hasn't looked back since.  Then for a while I was stuck at what I could do that would give back and be fulfilling for myself and afford me a flexible lifestyle.  I see that God did not want me to get stuck in the 9-5 rat race because I know if I was to get a big promotion or a new job it would be even harder for me to walk away and do what I'm really meant to do because of comfort and convenience.  Not to say anything is going to be easy but it's worth it.

Just thought I'd share for anyone who is at a hard spot between their normal routine and going for their dreams, ask any successful person if their road to success was easy and I'm sure you will get a HELL NO!  So go for it and trap up those boots and get ready for the journey :-)

Day on the MALL

Who said black folks don't have picnics on the mall???!  We do and we had us a good time!  We had a nice and fun day out on Saturday to enjoy the weather and we will definitely be making a habit out this.  Cayden had a ball and he loved his chair that his Mi Mi bought him :-))  Boogy was in tow of course but he wasn't feeling being on his leash.  We packed up the cooler, Los is definitely a boyscout so he was prepared lol  We had lemonade, iced tea, sandwiches, salad, potato salad, chicken and green beans!  oh and of course music...Cayden had a ball running around and people watching.  We saw tons of dogs, other kids and families, bike riders amateur football players and of course the usual tourists.  Just had to share a few pics from our day out.  To put the icing on the cake we had crabs with my cousin at her house after our day on the Mall...yummy!  SPRING IS HERE!!

The Past is Done...Give what you wish to receive

Alex is always on the ONE!  This post was nothing but the truth and I had never heard this quote until today.  I always thought that our childhood and past can really affect our future but this quote opened my mind to see differently.  Not to say that the past plays no part in our actions but the past does not have to cripple you if you want to have a better future.  If one has not received love, they may not know how to express it or may be a little reserved on when to give it in fear of not being hurt or rejected but the more love you give the more you will receive!  If we hold on to what we didn't get or have, we hold back all the good we can get NOW.  So why have a loveless past, present and future??  It will take time to open up and let down walls but intuition never steers you in the wrong direction.  There will be heart breaks, hurt feelings and disappointments but that happens to everyone.  Just use those times as lessons and move on and get back to giving as Russell Simmons would say! :-)